Spirituality or Religion?

im not religious. period. i've lost the plot of religion. my parents telling me to go to church on sundays used to hold little meaning for me. now it holds none. nowadays i say church is a place where people go to compare clothing on sunday. how many of the faithful flock to service just for the sole purpose to pray and seek faith? little if not very few. don't get me wrong. maybe there are a few of you who find solace in the temple of god. but i find it very redundant that we seek comfort in four walls built by man and in views expoused by man. do we really know if this is the 'right' kind of worship? we do not. i speak for christianity because i am qualified to. but it certainly holds weight in the other religions as well. this is not a 'my religion is better than yours' viewpoint. it is simply to highlight how convoluted religion has become.
the bible tells me to condemn people who are different; the non-believers, the adulterers, the homosexuals. but on the other hand, it tells me to love my neighbour as how god has loved me. now truly this is not the message of god. it sounds more like the views of men who wanted the ideal society where these subhumans are purged from society. editing the bible would have a seemingly good effect on future generations who would then shun these people in the name of god. but what are we teaching here? to preach selective hate? that is not what faith, hope and love is about. that is not what god is about.
i am convinced to turn away from organized religion and to focus on spirituality. i do believe in god. i believe there is a higher power and i am destined to live my life according to his ways; to love and care for my fellow man in this lifetime so that i will meet my maker to tell him i have lived my life to the fullest. but i will not follow in the path of self-righteous men who have diluted religion for their own agendas. who have altered the teachings of god for their own personal gain. my god speaks to me and i will listen. i will have my own conversation with Him and let his spirit guide me. but i will not pray to an effigy or an idol, in a place of worship, singing along to delicate tunes and standing, sitting and kneeling every now and then.
let spirituality guide you. the sole belief in god, and not what man says about god.

The Eloquence of Noise

just three frequencies. in triad. set in harmony. you get a chord. the happy, joyous ring of the major. set the middle note back a semi-tone, and you get the haunting, mourning cry of the minor.
yeah, it's these simple things in life that amazes me.
and though i don't know it, it's these simple things that matter the most.
and who would have known that something this simple can convey so much emotion when set in an absolute blend?
a rushing dose of ecstacy to your brain, to your very centre.
you find yourself just closing your eyes to the pain, love, hurt, joy.
the pleasure of pure, unadulterated sound just washing over you.
i don't mean that synthesized, digitized rasping that some choose to name genres after.
but the raw, unedited purr of a violin, or the snap of a guitar string or the voice of a piano.

thank god for music.

Life and Debt.

ah conspiracies. ever the fascinating subject to talk about. i love how just a mere rumour of a scenario sets people's minds churning. but hell, you name it. JFK, Elvis, CIA, the Moon, the Twin Towers, Michael Jackson, Aliens, that old lady who lives down your street...there's bound to be some truth in most of these conspiracies. often enough, it just boils down to odd coincidence.

but how far does coincidence stretch? for you who follows the news and current events would know by now that China plans to toss a drowning Greece, a lifejacket. and toss Spain an alarm clock for their siesta. and why not? China is rich. they have vast resource. they can practically do whatever the hell they want. hell, they can influence economies, trade markets and stocks. they are so powerful, they can choose to liberate any debt-stricken nation just like that.
hey hang on. all this sounds very familiar. wasn't the US doing this oh about 30 years ago? yeah that's right. back then when they were a superpower? that means that..but this is..but i thought..wait..are you thinking what i'm thinking B1? i think i am B2, it global domination time! get your chopsticks out and censor those google pages, ladies and gentlemen, we're in for a bumpy ride.

but it's anyone's guess really. 50/50. but here's where the conspiracy lies.

put yourself in Uncle Sam's shoes. if you were in a trillion smackeroos neck deep in crap, and your global influence is fading, with your country's economy taking shit every day because of the Arabs, and on top of that, your biggest nemesis has started plans to snatch the throne from you, what would you do?

nothing? you must be a redneck.

me? simple. run a bunch of cockamamie pro-America propaganda over the media and indirectly warn people that if you order Chinese take-out, you're gonna end up with diarrhoea in the morning. then i sit back and relax with a copy of Forbes' Top 10 Richest People in America. (Theory #1: US's top 4 richest people can amass almost US$2 trillion with only 40% of their wealth.)
gasp. heeeyy! that's enough to bail me out. with change to spare! better start being nice to these kinda people. and you, Leroy, Kumar and Gonzales, you shut up and keep on working. i'm not paying you to slack off. in fact, i'm not paying you at all. you better get used to it.

man, i wish we had the Soviet Union or the Socialists to heckle. made us feel goddamn big.

Hello.

Здравствуйте!! hello to you especially to reading this. that is right. YOU. i back. i take many time off this internet to concantrate on study. i miss time i can write like this, well, is not so much write but more like typing da? hahaha. do you get it? is funny.. anyways is just me and thought flow out of head like raging chechnyan killing bosnian. i is happy to be back. many things is change. i am learning many new culture and way of life. i think i becomes much different person. i always like to learn new thing and peoples, since i am little boy. is good to learn about expariences. it make you better human. not many thing can be learn from the schools. some thing you have to learn is from life itself.

but da, i am typing (or writting? haha) this because exam is coming for me like how Stalin come for serfs. i no worry. i ready. i feel ready. i happy to be ready for exam. that is why i have plenty much many time to talk here. please to stay tune for more update. i will post artikal (???) if there is things are worth to be writting about. (or typing (?) hahahah. i is funny person.) okay i say enough here for now. let me go back to book. i see you soon da? spasiba.

S.P. please to excuse my english. it take a while for to learn languange. da vostok.